the effects of fame

How safe is the acting profession? And I'm not talking about stunts or the dangers of the media. No, what I'm talking about is what can happen if they get to into a part. Is being a methodical actor dangerous?
I am starting to think it can. Well depending on the actor. I think more should be done, especially for those working on hhorror and physiological thrillers. I came to this thought watching Deadline. Its a good physiological thriller staring Brittney Murphy. I got to think about her death. I wonder if there is anyway the movie could have effected her. It was one. Of her last one, and the part would have been quite hard. Her character is REALLY messed up. It reminded me of Heath Legger and how I've heard he had been depressed after playing the joker. I know both are different, but at the same time it makes me wonder. Either way I think it could easily happen, especially if an actor is already depressed, or prone to depression. I think (and really hope they have) people available during a shoot if they need it. Every serious horror movie or the like should have a physiologist available. Even if its not needed, wouldn't it be better safe than sorry? But I don't know what they do, so maybe its already in effect. I hope so at least.

Zombies

I love zombies. I'm writing a zombie novel. I've painted a zombie picture. And I'm all in all pretty much obsessed with zombie culture.

Just thought I'd share that.

A no go

So, I didn't get the job. And while this bums me out (yes, I'm using those words), I'm trying to see it as a plus. I can always get my summer job back. I have my classes to look forward to. And volunteering at the library. And who knows, I may still find a job yet. So while it sucks, its not the end of the world.

The Kings Speech (A spiel)

I saw "The Kings Speech" with my mother on Monday. I don't usually end up seeing many Oscar hyped (wins, nominees...etc), but I went because I heard it was good. Still I went sceptical. I left awed. This move was amazing. Simply one of the best films I've ever seen. (My mother said it was the best she's ever seen).

I started out watching the movie and laughing slightly. Not that it was funny, cause it really wasn't, but  because I really felt for the character. Being shy myself, having to talk in front of people bothers me. I should also say I had an idea about the movie but it was wrong. I thought it was about the guy who wrote the kings speech's! I know, I know. I also didn't really get the title until too far later. :P

Colin Firth was amazing (word of the day much, kids?). Seriously, I loved his energy, his stammer (or stutter, I still believe they used the wrong word but maybe its a British thing.) It made me like the Royal family as well. I want to believe they were like that. I WANT to like them. A part of me does wonder if that's movie magic making them likeable.

Helena Bonham Carter is a good actress. I liked her before, but I have a respect for her acting now. I loved her as Queen Elizabeth (and I had no idea who she was playing until I heard her say 'I hope you don't call me Lizzie' (or whatever the exact quote was). I liked that she had normal hair, something I've never seen her with. And I also thought her and Collin Firth had amazing chemistry.

My sister told me it was like a Harry Potter reunion and its so true. There are so many people in it who are also in Harry Potter. Michael Gammon, Timothy Spall (Who I wasn't sure was actually in it until my sister said it was), and of course Helena Bonham Carter.

Okay, I'm going to wrap this up. Good movie. Go see it.

Dream

I had a bunch of weird dreams last night (maybe its the cough medicine :s), anyway one of the dreams I like was I was dating Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory. This dream was very un-cannon to the show, as any fans would know, but it was silly, cool, and I enjoyed it. Sheldon btw is my favourite character and if he'd chill a bit I'd date him. lol. Anyway just thought I'd share that.


Oh, ps- I got a job interview for tomorrow.

'Ode to an Accidental Stabbing' of a Puppet-Mitt

School

So, I'm only a day into my new course and I'm actually like this on-line learning. I was a little scared because I didn't know if I could do it, but I find myself pleasantly surprised. YAY. As long as I give myself breaks I'm doing really well.

Well, back to work.

The Horror!

Okay! *tears hair out of head*

The story I'm trying to get published Worse Than Death, as much as I love it, and want to get it published, seems to have some kind of suicidal instinct. A part of me is wondering if it wants to get published. *sigh.* On Saturday, I somehow, and I'm not even a hundred percent sure how, I lost all my edits. We're talking about almost two full rounds of edits. WEEKS of edits. Sigh, and its not the first time this has happened. When I was writing this for NANOWRIMO I lost 3000 words. But I finished then (and early) and I'll finish now. It's just soooo frustrating.

Charlie is dead...not really...well kinda/fans

Okay, so this blog is going to take a Vlogbrothers/John Green, two parter, thing.

PART ONE: Trip down memory lane.

Okay, I remember this time, not that long ago, seriously like maybe 2 years, when I was staying at a friends. Well we went on BlogTV to watch I believe it was Kaleb Nation (but it may have been John). Anyway, we started talking about LOST (cause we're cool like that) and started saying Charlie is dead (cause he is). Well people started reading it and thinking that Charlie McDonnell (of Charlieissocool fame) was dead. Well we found this really funny so we decided to try to start a rumour that Charlie was dead. Well people thought it, it didn't get too big, and then she got kicked off but I didn't. AH, fun times, fun times.

PART TWO: I made a fan today.

Today I started talking to a 14 years girl. It started about her admiring my MacBook Pro, and then evolved onto her seeing that I'm a writer. I told her about it and she was hooked. She told me I have to finish it and get published. She even said she'd get her friends reading my Zombie book. This was really good encouragement to finish and fight to get published. She made me see that people would want to read it, and her enthusiasm is great. Now she's going to help me by being one of my critics, and she'll be a big help when it gets published with advertising. And it will be published. So, all in all, a good day.

PS my copy of Zombie's Vs Unicorns came in! :)

What's your sign *winks*

So, last night a mini hysteria seemed to go on over astrological signs. Now, I don't follow them for the most part but I did fall victim to the hysteria. You see for 25 years I've seen myself as a Gemini. I love being a Gemini, and when my sister (who is also a Gemini) told me that we were suddenly Taurus's (love to all my Taurus friends <3) I went from confusion (she did text me 'we are Taurus now') to mad/saddened. It might sound silly but being a Taurus was a big thing to me. I actually find myself like that (even though I know its probably more me then anything else). My sister then said its like an Identity crisis (she wasn't happy with it either), and its true. You go from being something your whole life and then suddenly you're told you're not. It's weird. I know a lot of people reading this could care less what astrological sign they are. And while the whole thing saddened me, I would have got over it given time. I mean it would have been a little interesting to have different horoscopes to read. Still, this morning when things were cleared up (apparently there is a new 13th sign, so everyone else was told they were being bumped back one. BUT, it only effects those born after 2009. So all you little babies who have no idea how you're lives are changed: HAHA.)

So even though its not, and never really was, the end of the word, I'm still have to be the twin. A Gemini! YAY!

HMMMM....What to write about...

Okay, so I promised a certain best friend that I'd write a blog as soon as I had the internet again. And this is kinda, sorta, not the first time, but I didn't have time before. Why? Because I spent all the time at my Mom's trying to buy a bloody book (and not a book covered in blood). It's a book I need for my online class I'm taking to become a Library Tech. I'm really excited for this as I want to work in a library super bad. But, I got a book, kinda (went with ebook), and all is now well. Mostly 'cause I didn't have to pay an arm and a leg for it.

Another thing I should mention on here is that my 100 day challenge/ new years resolution changed a bit. I'm still going to get published but I decided Dawn of Destiny will wait, and I'm going to put all my attention onto Worse Than Death (my zombie cruise ship novel). I'm editing like crazy and already have like heavy edits done on like maybe 9 chapters. I'm really happy with how its going. And before any of my Dawn fans start freaking out (*cough* Eric *cough*) I'm still writing it but I'm going to use a perfected version of that to get agents. You see I'm going to try and get WTD published without one, as a stepping stone, if you will. I'm really excited for all of this, and pretty soon I'll be looking for editors to give my story a once over, so if you want to read it just let me know.

Anyway, I'm going to go enjoy the small amount of internet I have (and hopefully get more water for my Tea).

Till Later

Don't Forget To Blog Again (or be awesome!)

Oh, I almost forgot to add some pictures from last night (I took them as I was filming my new vlog).

Living is Easier...

With eyes closed- The Beetles.

I love this quote (and not just because my favourite character on Lost has it on his arm). It's very beautiful and true...at least in my opinion. This came to my head earlier this evening...or last evening as its 1:00 AM now. Life is hard. It's not easy as everyone knows. And sometimes it would be so nice to just get to close our eyes and pretend we don't see the unfairness, the sadness, the things about life can really suck.

This year I am determined to figure myself out. I am trying to make the most of myself and my life. I have liked closing my eyes to my own problems. I don't like drama, and I don't like pain for too long. So lately I have been trying to open my eyes, and deal with my own problems. I'm doing things that would have scared me before. Things that I ran from because they were hard.

Yes, living is easier when your eyes are closed, but my eyes are wide open and my life is finally beginning.

100 Day Challenge- update

Just reached over 22 thousand words. Yay. Hopefully I'll keep this up.

2011 is here at last

Wow! We are already over a decade into the millennium. That is so weird to think about. It seems like only yesterday it was 1992; and I was still a kid. Now I'm a 25 year old, and things seem so different. I am not writing this as a reflection of my life, but rather 2010.  I'm a lemming, get over it. lol.

Anyway a lot of my facebook friends kept complaining about 2010, when it started last year. I though find 2010 was a good year. I got a lot of firsts finally accomplished (heads out of the gutter peoples). I got to meet my friend Eric. I got to see one of my besties Erin after over a year :):).

I submitted a story for a magazine (it wasn't picked but it was practice). I entered two contests. I got my drivers licence after eight years of trying, and I've started to get my life together. I feel very happy and optimistic.

As for resolutions I want to get published. That will be what I'm working on (well it is my 100 day challenge). I'm also going to get in shape (both mentally and physically).

Well I am going to end this. My New Years didn't start off great, because of partying (something I don't find fun anymore. I've grown up.) Well, even though my New Years didn't start of the best, the way I see it, it can only get better. After all when your at the bottom you can only go up. lol.

Anyway, I'm going to try and get some writing done on Dawn of Destiny. Happy New Year, and good luck to all of you in 2011.